Morning Mail - 8.2.10

Young Noah: It's not about following your heart and it's not about keeping your promises. It's about security.
Young Allie: What's that supposed to mean?
Young Noah: [yelling] Money. He's got a lot of money!
Young Allie: You smug bastard. I hate you for saying that.
Young Noah: You're bored Allie. You're bored and you know it. You wouldn't be here if there wasn't something missing.
Young Allie: You arrogant son of a bitch.
Young Noah: Would you just stay with me?
Young Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fightin'
Young Noah: Well that's what we do, we fight... You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.
Young Allie: So what?
Young Noah: So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out.
Young Allie: What easy way? There is no easy way, no matter what I do, somebody gets hurt.
Young Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Young Allie: It's not that simple.
Young Noah: What... do... you... want? Whaddaya want?
Young Allie: I have to go now.
(Source: The Notebook)

Over the weekend I moved…

I found a box of pictures and a photo album, some cards and keep sakes. I realized that I think my ex went above and beyond to make our relationship work. I read her letters to me on my birthday, holidays, anniversaries, and other random notes. I thought about all that she put into it and I reflected on that. This is why I always say, I never say anything bad about my ex, she’s perfect, the problem was I was not perfect.

You know so I’m like I need to toss this stuff, and I think I tossed it twice and took it back out three times. I just felt awkward, but I told myself, that I would think about it again soon.

I have this photo album and in it were pictures of all my ex-girlfriends. The actual ones who made it to girlfriend status. It’s funny because they are all beautiful, I have to pat myself on the back.

This is going to get me in trouble, but this is my damn blog and I can do what I want. I recently reconnected with an ex, we hadn’t spoke or seen each other in a few years. She was bad, then she gained a bit of baby weight, and she lost it again. And so yesterday I found a picture of her that she sent me my freshman year when I was away in school.

That’s all I could say today.